Call Out My Name-

Sometimes I want you to feel the way I did. I put you over everyone. I want you to call out my name out in all ways. I want you to cry your soul away and you can’t speak anymore. People asking you, 

are you okay? 

And or, 

 Dooo… you have a sore throat?

Maybe even speaking to you in sign language thinking you can’t talk. 

Just couldn’t stop calling out my name; just like me.

Call out my name!

I want you to fuck me as your head is tilted back and you’re moaning not knowing its going to be our last time... I want you calling out my name. I want you to take my blessing and slap it on the side of your face. I want you to swallow our future kids, I know you never swallow your pride or words. But you can damn sure swallow my kids, our kids, our future kids. 

Call out my name! 

Call out our future kids name! 

What if… 

What if… 

they called out my name “Daddy”; Would you still leave them too?

Call out my name! 

I want you to be drunk and you can’t think of anything besides me and you call out my name.  I want the alcohol to feel so good that your heart starts pumping twenty times faster and you feel alive again after you fall face first. Then you fall right back down again. I’m telling you to fall in  love and have that energy always made me fall; be me for this one time.

Call out my name! 

I want you calling out my name out to do our laundry. I want you calling out my name when you see me coming home after my long flight home because you miss me. I want you calling out my name to God, asking God Why? Why do I feel this way? Is this real love? Do I really love him like this?

I want you calling out my name when you are in fear because you know I’ll take my life for you. You know I wouldn’t want to wake up if you weren’t laying next to me. You know I’d cut myself up for your life. I want you to feel that love and pain. You’ll see and find out that love is pain.

I want all this to happen as you find out I was never there. I was never really there like you were. Its all because of you. You wanted me between your legs not your heart. Maybe sadly I don’t regret it at all. I thought I wouldn’t make it another day at all but now I stand tall on the lessons and perceptions of it all.

I cry today in lust and lack of understanding on why all this worked out this way. I only wanted to know why but you never spoke. Something in me loved it and hated it. I shed a tear to The Weeknd “Call Out My Name”. I vibe out to every low and high note as it sings my soul away today,I want to know if you would cry too. 

Would you call out my name too? 

I’ll never know if you were just the strong one and if you really called out my name. Did we ever feel the same? Play the song and read all the lyrics. Maybe one day the truth will come to light.

My mother always preached  “The truth will always come to light in time. When one seeks to hide and cover up…eventually the truth will work its way up to the light and become known” 

Luke 8: 16-18. 

“The Mind of Lorenzo”

We found each other

I helped you out of a broken place

You gave me comfort

But falling for you was my mistake

I put you on top, I put you on top

I claimed you so proud and openly

And when times were rough, when times were rough

I made sure I held you close to me

So call out my name (call out my name)

Call out my name when I kiss you so gently

I want you to stay (I want you to stay)

I want you to stay, even though you don't want me

Girl, why can't you wait? (Why can't you wait, baby?)

Girl, why can't you wait 'til I fall out of love?

Won't you call out my name? (Call out my name)

Girl, call out my name, and I'll be on my way and

I'll be on my

I said I didn't feel nothing baby, but I lied

I almost cut a piece of myself for your life

Guess I was just another pit stop

'Til you made up your mind

You just wasted my time

You're on top, I put you on top

I claimed you so proud and openly, babe

And when times were rough, when times were rough

I made sure I held you close to me

So call out my name (call out my name, baby)

So call out my name when I kiss you

So gently, I want you to stay (I want you to stay)

I want you to stay even though you don't want me

Girl, why can't you wait? (Girl, why can't you wait 'til I-)

Girl, why can't you wait 'til I fall out of loving?

Babe, call out my name (say call out my name, baby)

Girl, call out my name, and I'll be on my way, girl

I'll be on my…