More Lies to myself-

Lying to myself just to save me. 

My feet feeling so heavy in each step I take, but I know it’s because my heart is just so big, it drags me, while everyone walks past me.

Lying to myself just to save me. 

Feet dragging cause of my past. Mhm, why does the truth always come back around. Why does my past weigh on me so heavily? 

Happens whenever new emotions start to trap me in, then all of a sudden my soul wants to go sin. Heart, Mind and Soul carrying all these emotions and trying to understand them all, it’s all confusing, but I’m getting use to this; Hopeless, I’m use to feeling like this, my lowest... 

But to ignore it all, I focus, I lie to myself just to save me. 

I’m just, lying to myself just to save me. 

Another poem and poet unnoticed, at their lowest...

More pain, Alcoholic veins, a product of the shame, snatching my peace, runnin' from my past and pain. 

But just to save me, I gotta lie to myself. 

But fuck it, one more drink. 

“The Mind of Lorenzo” 

Lying to myself so I can distance myself from all these raw emotions. I can’t admit it just yet. I’ll know when.