Blemishes-
Rethinking my image, right now people seeking my blemishes.
Reshaping my body, changing my energy waves, I am giving fear to a Tarot card reader. They see me in the dark, the Demon in me, the leader...
Wanting everyone to fall on there back landing on nails as I step all over them. They see evil and I see reciprocated pain and equality. I want peace, sometimes I leave the world, so I can release. I am always giving all positive energy. I am the one that prays for everyone and meditates for detachment of emotions so my pain won’t bleed through my eyes.
Things like that make me drown in some liquor and write fearful things in my scriptures. Another moment where I light up the Swisher. Trying to warm my body up, I know I’m getting cold, the shivers. Especially the moments I call her, just to kiss her and always be the giver and I see her post about the amazing adventurous sex all over Twitter.
Pouring another shot of liquor.
Rethinking my image, right now people seeking my blemishes. Reshaping my body, changing my energy waves, I am giving fear to a Tarot card reader. They see me in the dark, the Demon in me, the leader...
Ghost in peoples lives, they never ask about me, I put my emotions on the shelves of their book collection, I knock them down so they can see me or understand and heal me. But they never read. Never Love me, like me, I always love and show it. I just want to see all you smile and prosper, but what about me? I just want to see you smile and prosper even if you’re not by my side. But what about me?
I always spread positivity, don’t ever forget that, even if you think I didn't or don’t. I am the one crying at night in my own pain still praying for you, you , and you even you.
Sometimes I have to remember that hatred and sadness stems from people who hate their own existence or life at that moment.
I pay attention enough,
I see, read and hear, that you’re in pain, I can tell by what you be sayin, but I know you won’t admit it, because you don’t want to come off as too soft or fragile.
I forgot I'm better off alone,
I forgot I care for everyone's happiness, but forget about my own.
Learning, elevating, buying mental health books, reading them just to control all my pain.
Rethinking my image, right now people seeking my blemishes. Reshaping my body, changing my energy waves, I am giving fear to a Tarot card reader. They see me in the dark, the Demon in me, the leader.
They never ask me about me because of my money, they see me all good, because of my financials. Judge me so tough by just looking at me, I feel so boxed in like boxes at the Amazon warehouse.. but I always fight my way through the tape to put my hand through the box, the same way I was the rose that grew from concrete just to show that I was different and I could make it through society. If only they knew things like this sometimes give me anxiety. The little crazy things society does to create the insanity. For myself, I tell myself that humanity is just spontaneous, I find a way for it to be my entertainment for some sanity.
Rethinking my image, right now people seeking my blemishes.
Trying to keep myself lowkey. But what if I showed my true colors, what if I purposely but in the same unintentionally created hatred. What if I showed how I get treated as if I flew out tropical, when they choke on it, mouth full, getting treated tropical whenever I fake a role that society wants me to show. When my money gets showed for the world to see. When you live in the city where drugs is the go to. Loyal Strippers at my house loving me knowing I’m the realest, never asking for my money, they got it all, one sucking my soul away, and one kissing all over my neck. She catching my Semen then spiting it in her mouth for her to swallow. Looking down at them telling myself damn my soul can be so shallow. Then I get a text from her,
Hey, I miss you big head. We should link tomorrow.
What if I screenshoted my life for the world to see all the gifts I give. But I only do it so I finally get shown some love for once. But I can also tell you I do it because that’s how I show my love and appreciation, it’s a little of both.
But I just want to live lowkey, a little seductively and love from coast to coast.
I just, I just love.... please just let Joe sing it from All The Things.
Right now I am just,
Rethinking my image,
for me, for my own selfishness, to fix my own blemish.
“The Mind of Lorenzo”
“when the image is new, the world is new.”