Disco Ball Smile-

The good soul in Hell. Surrounded by bad spells and temptations attached with bad karma. The good soul smile is a disco ball. Nothing but an illusion of its reflection from society. 

The soul feeling paralyzed.

Some smiles bring sunshine to others lives; then there’s mine from time to time; The disco ball shine. Sometimes I wish people picked me up like the book in churches.

The good soul in hell walking with the disco ball smile but you can’t see what’s behind, the soul walking on crutches. These mornings paralyzed feeling worthless refusing to feel purchased. This good soul in hell steady scratching my head because of the world issues; let alone my own world and my so called friends and all the dead ends. 

This good soul in hell steady scratching my head; all the drugs I should try. I already know I’m feeling dead inside. The burning, the flames, that’s me inside; living in disguise hiding from everybody‘s eyes. If only you knew this smile that shines, the one that blinds, that disco ball... this one; it had to cry thousands of times to get back to the good old smile that gives others that sunshine.  

“The Mind of Lorenzo” 

It sucks how people can just go around using people and not caring about that persons life or what you meant to that person. How money can really suck people into devilish things. How money can create selfishness. How peoples past can create lack of feelings and lost hopes.

It sucks... knowing love isn’t ever pure until one loves themselves; but a lot are misconceived on what loving themselves really is, and how much pain you have to suffer for you to really love yourself, as well as understand yourself for self love.

Sometimes I want to change and create myself to be what society wants me to be ... but I’m going to continue to be pure knowing that my last day ... I was one to never change and only loved people. Use me, hurt me, avoid me, whatever you want... it’s okay. My heart will never crumble into pieces.

 Me not changing and always loving is for the next life of Karma; it will rejuvenate the energy of love to the next life.

A lot of times I try to think about the types of reaction I have in this life is for my next life ... and that keeps me calm, understanding and pure.